For My Children ~

I pray that I can provide you a life of God, Love, and Peace.

I pray I do not disappoint you and that I make you proud.

I pray that one day you understand the truth and the decision I’ve had to make are out of your well-being and the love I have for you.

I pray you know that you will always come first in my life.

I pray you know I will die to protect your innocents.

I pray I can teach you the importance of family and that all three of you learn to love and support each other, just like Uncle Brock, Nanny and I do.

I pray that you find someone to spend your life with and will love you unconditionally.

I pray that through faith you value your relationships with others.

I pray I can teach you the skills to be strong and not run when life is hard.

I pray I can teach you how important you are, you value yourself, and strive to be the best person you can be.

I pray that life brings you much joy and happiness.

Blake:  I think you are the most wonderful 7 year old transformer boy ever!  I wish I could live one day in your head because I know it would be very action pack fighting off the Decepticons.  I think this divorce will affect you the most.  You will be the only one out of all of 3 that will even remotely know what it was like to live with both your dad and I.  It makes me sad that one day these memories will slowly fade from your mind and that a single parent house hold will become normal.  I do know that you have so many people that love you and want only the best for you.  I have so much faith that one day you are going to grow up to be the best at whatever you choose.  You are so strong-headed and determined that I know your dreams will come true.  What I love is that you have so much compassion in that little body of yours.  I love how you randomly hug and kiss me, how you are the first to tend to Chase when he is upset, and how much you love your little sister and how you call her “my girl.”  You are such a great big brother to Chase and Layla, they are so lucky to have you as a role model.  I know right now you are so sad and life has changed so much for you, but please know that the rest of my life will be making sure this sadness goes away and you live a happy life!

Chase:  I don’t even know where to start with you!  It’s so hard to believe that you are 3 years old, much less a big brother.  I love your energetic, happy demeanor.  You always have a smile on your face and usually only cry when I won’t give you candy.  I love that you are always the first one to tattle on your big brother, which I just look as if you are watching over him.  Chase bug you have such a large vocabulary telling me the other day you want to swivel in the stroller.  I’m so excited to see you are finally growing out of your allergies.  You sure did scare me the other day when you ate the peanut Cheerios, with your swollen eyes, but you didn’t flinch one little bit.  It was just another day to you!!  Chase know that not only do you have me, but so many others that will help shape you into the wonderful adult you will be one day.  My heart hurts for you more then you’ll ever know because your truly do not understand all this.  Please know that you have the special, little place in my heart that God made just for you!  On that Thursday afternoon back in November 2008 at 2:19 p.m. I fell so in love with you and each day I fall more and more! 

Layla Girl: We have only just begun!  Together you and I will have a life of shopping, fun, and lots of girl time.  I often find myself daydreaming of the future we will have not only as mother and daughter, but one day as friends.  I think I have more fears with raising you then I do your brothers.  I pray so hard that you grow up to be an independent, confident woman.  I will support you with whatever you choose to do in life.  Along, with your Paw Paw B and uncles, and if it’s God’s will, there will be a man that will treat you like his daughter and to show you what it’s like to be respectful of a woman.  I hope when time is right that you do find a spouse that honors, loves, and respects you unconditionally.  You are such a blessing and I will forever be grateful that God chose me to be your mother.

With love,

Your mommy